Ventilation.
This blog has long been left unused, unvisited. And for that reason, it is the perfect place to vent out to the void of the internet. I have been happy for months now. Sure not perfectly happy, definitely not content. But happier than I had been through my years of college, my time working and earning, well, a lot compared to many. Not as fulfilled as the time I traveled and worked, nor as when I traveled to Europe and they published a comic of mine. But I have grown, I have become three times the writer and man I was before. I have learned a lot about myself on my own. From time to time I still yearn for affection and miss the companionship of a partner, both emotionally and sexually. But... But I don't need it right now. I don't want it. And yet. I felt a gut punch today. Same kind of gut-wrenching feeling that I got back in Yuriria that day. I won't act on it. Whatever happened outside my sphere of self is not of my business. Whatever it is, they can deal with